ok...why am i sounding depressing????

HAPpY NEW YR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee hahahhahaa....NEW YR...NEW yR...YAY! "chestnuts roasting on the open fiRe..."

hahaha..missing that particular someone...reading back on the stuff i wrote..i am indeed happy..i am indeed fortunate...i am indeed blessed...there is nothing more i need but u...*mUAchx.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......(juz trying to take up space HA)....oh..today went jp to eat LJS with sum clazmates...lame lah...as we were eating...saw this show.."wo gen jiang si you ge yue hui 3"....LAME LOR....supEr ...hahaha..the doll was so FAKE!!!!..hahaha...lol..

oh..today at the bus stop...saw this guy staring at me....iRRITATING!!!!!!!! uGH...feel like poking his both eyes out...wahaha..no lah...i prob look like sumone whom he noe...WHY do i have a face that looks so much like othERS!!!!!!! uGH!...all my life..sure have sumone come up to me and ask me if i am sumone...=S....I AM ELAINE! ACCEPT mE!..dun mistake me for sumone else..i am hu u see...no facade.=)

yeah...the yr is ending...no regrets actually...erm..have lah..hahaha....but not really gonna brood over them...i should look ahead!!!....yEah!...i love lines...i love yellow...green...brown...WHEeeeeeeee....i love the world...

suddenly remembered about the dream i had earlier on...the result of sleeping longer...lol....was tired...as i had maths lesson in the morn..7 AM!!!! yah...almost died in the morn...but nvm..gotta get used to it again...

got home..SLEEp...dream...sumthing about going round n round.....oh ya..yest had a fierce falling again..i always dream abt falling..sighx...i prob committed suicide in my past life or sumthing...anyway...abt today...

dreamt abt swimming...around n round...then he died...i was completely devastated...really...comPLetely...the whole 2 hrs when i was slping...i was crying for 1 1/2 hr in my dream...ALWAYS!....in the dream..u noe..when u lose sumone really dear...u start crying like..SO hard..So hard that ur whole world is going to fall apart. feel so drained when i woke up...anyway in the dream..there was always sumthing to remind me of my dearest....and i cried...AGAIN...i kept cryING!!...sigh..i say out here also no one will understand wad i'm trying to express..nvm...its juz that...i felt wad it feels like to lose sumone so close...it hurts..u feel like u're bleeding...ur world seems bleak...and nothing matters any longer...ur tears...it has flowed till it has really dried...so bad tat when u cry...nothing comes out but juz harsh breathings and sobs...no one can understand y u can't let go...but u dunno why u keep on crying...u juz can't help remembering that person..u keep hoping the person would come back...u hope so badly..u keep hoping and hoping.,but iat the back of ur mind noes that u're holding on to a withered hope..and the reality juz hits u..he is never coming back...u're alone..so alone..u only have an image to keep in ur mind..the moments u spent with the person in ur heart...u miss the person SO much...so much that u feel that everything beautiful is nothing..u drift into nothingness...and u start crying again... u are almost on the verge of hallucinating that u see or feel that the person...whether its real or a ghost...is there...and u start crying again... my heart aches now...dunno...weird dream..the lost was so real..i panicked and msged him....i feel so tired nw...so afraid...dun wan anything to happen to him...ever...

but well..this is juz a dream. dreams dun come true...do they?

headache.
GRrrr...having a headache now...haha...nvm..juz go knock into sum walls can le..haha..later ba.
missing sumone..hope he have a wonderful new yr celebration aka supper...haha..yah...
decide to forget sum stuff...and really have to get dwn to doing stuff...today's maths lesson was victorious for me..mUAHAHA..hahaha...i didn't fall asleep...lol...no lah...really muz pay attention le..mayb muz plant myself in frnt of lecturers le...if at the side..DIe le...haha..
well next yr means a NEw yr...and it represents setting new resolutions...and having new beginnings...end to the bad...and improvement to oneself...haha.yah

1) STUDIES. next yr is A levels...damn damnIMPT...haha..dunno wad vocab shld i use to express it...lol yeah..gotta concentrate...set my priorities right...i have no allowance to let down those hu have high hopes on me...though i wld like to say.."SIGH"..but i shall not...coz i have to do it..i cannot let myself down..my parents...everyone..that includes him. gotta have more discipline...almost cried that day my father scolded me...but i told myself to hold it in...dun like to show my weakness in frnt of him...pride i guess...i love him though. ok..digressing..lol..JIAYOU elaine! yep...its all abt being focused...juz like wad jason said.=)

2) US. its been 3mths and 11 days...have never regretted spending any with u...=) gonna have to spend less time with u next yr...but i'll still try my best...to my capability...to be there for u physically and emotionally...yeah...=) loving u....forever and always...and this is juz a hurdle we have to get over with, together.*hugZ

3) UGH! cherryn! we muz go gYM!!!!!!!! hahahhaa..lets revert back to the apple thing can..lol...stoopid canteen food...UNHEALTHY! lol...yah...gotta have to consume lesser...drink more water...run more to improve my stamina...touch is sumthing really fun..dun wanna be the one lagging behind...YEAH!..lol...=) JJ touch rox! hahaha..

4) Parents. gonna show more care n concern to them...they are all i have..and wat i will always want and love...they are the ones hu is still there with u when all else leaves u.....sighx..dun ever wanna think abt deaths and stuff...life is unpredictable...seeing other pple's children or parents being killed unexpectedly....makes u think wat iF.....so dun wanna regret.... i love u mum and dad...=)

5) Friends. impt pple in my life. this past yr...esp with cherryn...make me realise how i do sumtimes be insensitive...or taking them for granted...i'm sorry to those whom i have let down! yepyep...i'm learning...juz like everybody...if u ain't happy with me...juz tell me in the face k.yep.. really gotta show more concern and stuff...they are precious too...

hmm...is there anymore??? hahahaha....dunno lah..learn more read more change the globe....hey..that sounds like a song..but nvm..makes sense...OH YAAH! SAVE moneyyyyy.....hahahha...forgot abt that...

6) SAVE MONEY...*kachink! hahaha...money is impt...practical sense...gotta save for rainy days...or buy stuff for impt pple...yepyep...

think that's all....sigh..worried for my dad...the china pple better feed my dadOK! if not i'm gonna complain..he was calling home...saying his plane is being delayed...water on the runway turnined to ice..hA...dad..bee v careful k....yeah...and he's angry coz he's hungry..LOL....

7) LOVE THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!! god made the world beautiful...treasure it....SAVE the EARTH...hahaha.yeah..

ok...end of resolutions...cannot be too ambitious...mayb i better get down to do sum stuff...sch starting on monday...so fast..."ARGh!!......erm*look arnd*.....i mean...YAY! . . . -_-''' " *REN*

hee

jingLE beLLS!!! elaine's the best...serene lays an EGG! hahaha...michelle farts...serene snores..MERRY CHRISTMAS to aLL....! =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!! HOHOHO. ok..lame...wahahaha....hehe...actually feeling quite bored now...but dunno y...having a mixture of inexplicable happiness and sympathy...=)

gonna play with colours once again...ain't colours woNDERFul? they make up most of the things in ur life...and hardly anyone bothers muxh about it..hahaha..o..i'm digressing again..haha..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY pOOTY BOY!!!!!!!!! i love my pootpoot..hehe...he's the cutest..bestest..wonderfullest...watevernest...i love hiM!!! hehee....my lovely christmas baby...he's furry and cutey...he licks me and sneezes on my face...he shits everywhere..and constantly (prob puRPOSELY) wees on the wrong spot...despite all of that...i love him frm head to tail...POOTPOOT! u're the beST!...i'm gonna make u a delicious...scrumptious...dinner...juz sum tender loving chicken slices...topped with cans and cans and unlimited cans of ...canned dog food...hahahahaa...wheeee...love my pooty boy~ =P

merry xmas once again...and i'm yearning to hear the xmas song.."chestnuts roasting on the open fire...blah blah blah blah....."...paiseh..dunnoe the lyrics...hahaha..yesterday tot it was going to b miserable...cannot spend with hIM....the whole family is asleep...pooty included....and i'm the only awake person..hu tries to down sum whisky..but realise it tastes quite aWful....so settles on one can of jolly shandy...but still didn't feel JOLLY...ha~ but my darling was still the best...sigh....

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahahaa...he surprised me...sighx...*loving u with all my heaRt*... where else can i find a wonderful bearbear hu wanders arnd my house at 1 am...with his worst pair of shoes on...hope ur legs feels much better todAY...=) love ya...u shldn't have done that...but i love u to do that...but...but..hahaha..dunoe lah... i was touched...but yet heart ache when i see u limping...sighhhh...yah..u hAr...silly beary...chey..but u're the BEST!!!!!!!!!!!! *muachx...it juz seems so easy to let my world revolve arnd u...=) merry christmas dear...

merrry merry xmas to all my frens too!!!! hahaha...i love all of U!!! and i am looking forward to meet u all next yR!!!!!! hahhaa..shld i make my new yr resolutions NOW??..hmm mayb a bit early...yEAh..hhaa...yepyep...

sigh...can't wait for tuesday to come...

my cousin is going back tommorow i tink...OH NO...i forgot abt using colours..

haha..well its christmas...gonna have a kind of feast tonite i guess...hehe...but no presents..aWWWW...nvm..i have the love of families...frens...and beaRy...hee=)
its enough...no need to doubt anything juz because of wad keng ee said...i almost cried yesterday actually...coz wat he said made me feel helpless...and doubt actually filled me...sighx...wateevr...shldn't be harbouring sad tots on this wonderful yet dreary day...coz u're not here beside me...

now then do i understand wad "so near yet so far" really means...

bad day 2 days in a row. life sucks. esp without u. sighzzzz....

now in my bro's room reading his blog...he is gushing abt his newly bought lord of the rings gaMe....hahaha...i also quite excited to share his excitement with him actually....but he how oLD liaO! wahahha...dunno him lah...hope he faster find a job soon..then he dun need to keep nursing his wound..caused by a vicious woman....hahaha...(my bro may kill me if he reads this)....lol=P dunno lah...think that its stoopid...feel like strangling that girl...i mean..hu want to get engaged so fast...21 yrs old leh....at least wait for the guy to be stable in most of the things like...income..or job...or watever...my BRO juz turn 21 and she wanna get married and have kids...PLS LAH~ and beCAuse they have disagreements on the engagement issue...she wanan break up...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....wads wrong with the world...duNno lah....ahaha..my bro IS REALLY going to kill me.hahaha...die.yah..

christmas...i can't wait for my cousin to go hOME....ok lah..i noe i'm being really mean...but i really wan her to get off my back...she really have sum attituDE proB can...but she do have a quick mouth. prospects of being a lawyer. yep. christmas...is also a time for NEW begginnings....yay! when she's gone. wahahaa....k...being a meany now... sighx...new beginning for a yr of study....heLp.

last 2 days. shit. hhaha...yah...can't help but describe it as shit. i dun wanna msg u...coz u're busy with stuff...juz time n again pop by with a msg or two...haha..if i keep msging according to the number of times i miss u...u may deem me as a psycho maniac..lol~ this 2 days were...again...shit. mum's relentless scoldings...ARGH! i do love her a lot...but sumtimes she gets on ur nerve...that u really feel like asking her to bug off...but hey..she's still my mum... she scold me for sum small thing...then she'll bring up other stuff....then make it into such a big thing...then sum things i did...she also everything nag me...and SCOLD ME...sumtimes i can;t notice the diff btw her nagging and scolding..it sounds the same..seriOUSly. yah..haha...yepyep...when i'm angry...and pissed off...even if u accuse me wrongly i'll keep quiet...dunNo y...mayb i shld try one day of scolding back..but i'm trained that way since young...no talking back...coz u're get it twice as hard...ha. the memories ~ anyone afraid of my mum now? hahaa..no lah...she's really a great person...juz tt she makes a mount chudalup out of a small hOle...ok...mayb u shld try mount everest...

i've been dreaming and wanting to run into ur arms...so down...felt so v down...but sumtimes u gotta handle ur probs urself...esp when u're not there..=) its ok...i can still feel u...i'm glad u're ok=) though was worried when u told me u're sick...sighx...take care wor~

been toking much with andrew these days...but when i was angry he send sum lame msg back..ahhhh....want to strangle him...wahahaha stoopid guy~ to andrew...U OWE me a TREAT....DUN forgET! yah....

love is like a piece of artwork...even the smallest bit can be so beautiful.

yoyo!
hahhaa...finally have time to write my blog..my irritating cousin is taking a bath....haha..*phew...juz taught her to make stars...practise piano...do assesments..go swimming...and making a cup of m,ilo is coming up...ARGH! y ain't i paid for this..hahaha. .well..there are times when she really is nice..RAREly i mean...yyah....wonder y she so spoiled..omg..can u imagine..today my grandma came in the room to read newspaper...and my cousin(pri2 going to pri3) told her...*in chinese* y u come in the room! u dun need to go sweep the floor meh? wah ..*penGz*...i really dunnoe wad to say...scolded her later on...GRRR..1 week and 4 days more...nvm..i'm stROng...this is nothing man~ hahaha=D i have patience..yepyep...hee
him...hahaa..wild rollercoaster...love yOU! hee..our 3rd month coming liao..but oh fate has decreed that we be seperated on that day...hm..nvm..when there are more months to come..hee=) *(muachx....enjoy ur camp...and pls dun break anything during rugby friendlies k...can't bear to lose u...any part of u..)
i miss uwa...sigh..sumtimes images of everyone..standing in one line on the beach..waiting and yelling when the waves come rolling in...so nice...and warmth juz seeps right down to ur soul...also on that nite at king's park..yeah..singing together...and also staying in currie hall..and lamenting about the food...that always seem to be sandwiches and sausages and salads and beef and chicken and jerky and chips and pasta and...ahhhhhhhhh...hahahaa=P sigh...the laundrette also...mw mich and serene were there at midnight...half asleep and writing our reflections...sigh...really miss those days...those seemingly long yet short period of time..yep..let me know those whom i think i noe..yet do not know..ok...i'm blur already..wad am i toking.hahahaha..wateveR~...i'm juz glad i am able to these bunch of peepx better...yep..that even includes ms mandy..really sweet teacher..=) better jiayou for her next yr..hee~=P
mich in paris now..say have sum hot guy..haha..PJC daopok...hahaa..sigh..how i wish i can travel arnd the world too..life's too short to regret...but y am i doing so? well...i dun regret one thing though...=) and that is knowing u...getting close to u...and being part of u...US is the word.=) and u make me mad mAN! ahhhh..*paiseh* lol u mad bearish too...hahah! i'm something huh~ hehehehehe=x bleah...
i can;t stop thinking abt U!!!! ahhhhhhhh...ahhaha...wondering how was the friendly...hope u nev pop anything..*praying*...yepyep...can't forget ur scent..lol...ok...thats a bit out of point..heehee...
christmas. oh no...i've been a bad gal this yr...hahahha..well...actually every yr..how can anyone be so good...how can anyone not commit any mistakes? if so..santa pte ltd gotta close down le...=p yah...well...my bro bought this jack daniels for us to drink..and my mum ordering turkey and such stuff lah...though she dun really celebrate christmas...hahaha...yest was toking to charlene..was quiite fascinated that her grandma's house had a christmas tree..taller than HER!hahaha..think i sound like a ctry bumpkin./..its juz that i see it in movies...but didn;t noe pple will make an effort to set up trees like these...sigh..hope to have one sum day.,,really cool to put the star on the tree!! * ahem..that's me*...hee...as long as the tree dun fall down lah...=P yeah! yupyup...then all ur relatives gather...and do potluck...everyone has presents for almost EVEryone...then wine drinking...the spirit of homecoming those kind will really exist...hahah..dunnoe lah..crazy thinking of miNE...hehe~=P
next yr. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....stRESSED....A levels...hu invented THEM! hahaa..dunnoe lah...gotta SEE the J1s playing while us slogging our guts out...or trying to snowball thru the thick piles of homework and tests...sighz....playing time always seem to end...haha..reality also sumhow really muz set in...gonna step on it now...hahah..though i shld really study a bit before sch starts=x hee....yeah...not doing well next yr will be letting everybody down and myself down as well...so much expectations and pressure set on me...juz becoz i had 10 pts...uGh...i am always the sibling to be supposed to do well...i have to do well or my parents will lose face as compared to those other relatives who will brag..or colleagues...then my mum willl cum home and say,,oh u noe,.,,the whose and whose son or daughter...went to NUS...or dunnoe how many As....then the topic will veer to me...WHy can;t u do bettER!!!!! hahaa...yeah...the harsh reality of life...~
suddenly remembered when i was young...when i did well...my mum never praised me...always asked hu is the top..if i'm not...then ask me y i'm not the top...i'm also being compared to other pple's daughters...if my bro did well in sumthing...i am also expected to do well at that...well...ps...y am i saying so many WELL*....haha..dunnoe...quite strict upbringing...lian now chalet also cannot go..sumtimes wonder hu am i living for...but hey...i gotta have to shoulder sum responsiblities in life..yepyep...hahaha..think i am indeed a scorpio...i can easily sink into depressions if i wan...yep...but i'm optimistic!!! yeah!...wad for live ur life in a gloomy and unhappy state..when most of ur time u're cursing life for making u this way...
i'm not gonna curse life...coz fate has brought u to me...=) sigh....bliss of life..hahaha=P juz realised i've given a lot of firsts to u...but i've never regretted any of them...=) hee..(nothing notti about this sentence ok..) yepyep...*muachx...thinking of u~...6 more days...countdown.

happy birthday to me happy birthday to me happy birthday to MEE....happy birthday to ME...hehe~~~~=PpPPP i am sevenTEEN!!!! wheee...one more yr to go to watch M18 movies and buy alcohol..hahha crazy ole me...=)
well though i am happy but i'm in pain...think i sprained my knee...coz yesterday did a splIt...pls lAH! hahaha..so paiseh...yah....and today is the nationals...and have i said i got into the team? yah...i did...and i muz be crazy not to take part juz becoz of the knee...yah...borrowing knee guard frm qianyu..everyone..wish me luCK...i am determined..coz i want to play this competition SO badly..i dun care the consequences..and i have my darling's blessings...and so many other peepx hu wished my a very happy birthday...yepyep...haha..stubborn me...
*in pain*...i dun care.. its my bdae...i wanna romanticize...hahaha..ahhhhhhhhhh...very pain ahhh...since morning i've been walking arnd the house...trying to run a bit run a bit..super pain..but i'm gonna make it...yEP! i believe mind over body..=) jiayou for me k...sigh..dun wanna bring the team down also...think JJ is great...we can make it de!!! yEAH!!=)
i'm so sorry bearbear...i can't spend the day with u...but my heart is with u...and hope ur dad's alright...love ya~...sorry again...u muz b a bit disappointed...sigh..but gotta fufil sum obligations..yep..=)...sat? i try to make time k...*hugz
uWA coming..yay! i can't wait..hehe...all the trip and stuff...but so much work..shit...hahah...i wanna stay in the farm...can u imagine..packing...then its a more independant trip...then checking in next tues..Wheeee!!!!!!!! having wake up call frm mich...gonna go there in taxi.(mayb)...can shop...stoopid pple asking me to buy stuff for them..i'm no retail centre connecting frm australia to s'pore...hahah..but nvm..i'm nice...buy for them..ya...hahhaa..=)
the day is bright...the sky is having a hint of gray...but i'm gonna show the rest how jj team could kick their butt..yAY! ok..that dun rhyme..shucks..watEVer..haha..i love u pple..and i have 5 wishes...
1. happiness with him and always with him forever and always.
2. have my friends by my side...coz they're precious to me=)
3. my family would be happy and safe and healthy!
4. WORLD PEACE..(ms universe typical huh)..haha..but i do mean it=)
5. brain cells stay and fat cells disappear FOREVER! yay! ahhaha

i love u pple...and sumtimes i think writing in a blog is a load of crap.....*confession*but nvm...hahah..bLehx...
seventeen is an age when it wun be that happy...hahaa..A levels on the way..shit la..yeah..but with everyone with me...i can surely make it thru...god bless=)

die.
i finally noe wad love could do to one. it hurts. it heals. it feels great. but it could be painful. i may be thinking too much. but the feelings juz overwhelms you. u find it hard to breathe. and u feel a restriction in ur chest. u feel vulnerable...yet powerful...and today i noe how vulnerable feels like...its the fear...that that very special person may break ur heart in two and never come back.

" when sumbody loves you..it's no good unless he loves u...all the way.....happy to be near u..when u need sumone to cheer u...all the way..
taller than the tallest tree, thats how it gotta be...
deeper than the deep blue seas...thats how deep it goes, if its real
when sumbody needs u..its no good unless he needs u all the way..
through the good old lean yrs and all those in btw...cum wat may...
hu noes..where the road will lead us..only a fool would say..if u let me love u..its for sure i'm going to love u...all the way...ALL the way...
taller than the tallest tree...that's how it's gotta feel..
deeper than the deep blue seas...thats how deep it goes, if its real..."

YOyO...wassupwassup!!!
hahaha...damn sian now...=) now...i'm breathing and living and dying for PW....PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW ...IT sucks BIG TIME MAN!!!!! aRGH!!!! hu INvented suCH thing....AS if anyone would wanna noe our proposed course of action...pls laR...the world dun give a heck abt ur silly little slide in sum mini s'pore...hahaha..die..i'm feeling real cranky..lol=P
or mayb that was an excuse..hmm..today went to meizi zi 's house..SO neat loh...the ENtire hoUSe was spick n span..put my room to shame~..hahhaax :p yeah! but nice la...we practised a bit today....then...steph came late..hai...but nvm...tomorrow we meeting at 6 laH! SIAO rite...i can't wait for tuesday to be oVER...PW U SUCK! @^%$&^@%^#$ hahahahha..yeah...then i went into meizizi's bro's room...suPER tidy also...then saw a big world map..then realise...there are so many places i've yet to go...so many experiences i've yet to go tru...wouldn't it be nice if u could take a trip dwn or up to the poles...or even visit sum greenland? ahhaha..i wanna go swITZweLAND!!!!HAHAHA...sigh..all social studies fault...hehe..tempt me to go there...yeah..that sumone wanna go fRAncE~ hahaha...y not euRops trIP! haaha...watever...but hey...in 22 days time...i'll be OFF !!! my 1st step to visit the wORLD! my 1st WESTERN counTry maN!!! ok..that sounds damn stoopid...wahahhaa..but hey..i'm deprived..can't help it if my parents love asian countries can i...=P yeah...think sumtimes my bro quite shallow...duno y...anyway...yupyupyup...i've had lots of tots running thru my mind these days..none of that gd...in sum sense...ahhahah!! and i had a nitemare the day be4 yesterday'S nITE! OMG...it was reALLY scary...i WAS pETRIFIED....can u imagine? haha...erm...luckily i was woken up by michelle's phone call if not i wld have died loh...*still traumatised by the dream*....
be4 the nitemare..i had a naughty dream...*secret*...but i also can't really remb that one lah...the nitemare..*shudder*...its abt a boy...he had a ghost/demon mum...hu wans to kill the sister...hu is a ghost...super stoopid lah..hahaha..then he told me...then i was lying on my bed...but not the real position la...in the dream i was directly facing the door...then the girl is called AUSILLA....weird...anyway...then i saw her walking past...then i actually shldn't b able to see her la...but i kindhearted...then was toking on the phone...then i purposely say.."i HEard ausilla's mum wanna kill HER!!" then the girl walked back and she look anGRY lA!...then i tried to pretend i never see her....but shE COMING CLOSER TO ME!!!!! she VERY angry and dun believe that her mum wanna kill her..then SHE WANT TO KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....then SHE PRESS oN MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!! i was going to si liao la...hahaa..then mich call me...*pHEW* ok...that sounds a bit stoopid...but i dun care..hahaha!...nitemare...muz b becoz of watching horror movies...sigh~...hahaa.but i'm not blaming anYONE!!! hehe=)
sighx...when are holidays really going to begin....so many lessons...and..hehe...one special day when a V special girl is born....is coming closER! ahhahaa...okok lah...dun expect much...17 yrs le...hope have more to go...hahaha..thats my wish..and i wanna spend the rest with my beloved. ...FRIENDS!!! ahhaha...PUN PUN...is that a pun btw? ahhaa..duno...i v happy these days...and i can't stop smiling when i'm with u...*hugz....think a lift is v exciting...wahahahha...u all guess the emaning of THAT! ehhe~ yupyup...sighx...quite sad....i couldn;t go for training on sat...i want loh...coz coach show the videos...then i wanna learn more...i dun hope much to get into the team...but...i trying to bond with the rest le lAH!...but hey..i'll try harDEr...=) got so many "duties" to fufil this hols...gfotta study...gotta visit frens...gotta go HOLIDAY!!!! hehee...UWA ROX....yup..oh no..gotta go eat dinner..mum mum...hahaha...MISSING SUMONE A LOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT>...it cld be U! ahhahaa..bye~

helllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~
yeapyeap....HIGH nOWWW....hahahaa..drinking beer...wheeeeeeeeee~~~ hahaha..heck to the world...hahaha..yepyepyep...=) i love everyone! hahaha...i love...hee...yupyupyup...missing everyone...esp..someone...wheeeeee..duno...i siao le...juz heard frm sumone that one of my senior in fhm..sigh..quite unpredictable life cld really be huh...yup....today was in the car...then driving past...saw many pple...i wonder...how wld it be like to be sumone else...will i be thinking abt my children...abt my finance...abt the guys in my life...or juz engrossed in the toy i am holding...hahhaa...yup...quite fun...u neveer noe wad u are going to becum..u enevr noe wad u are going to achieve...u neveer noe where fate is going to lead u...do i believe in fate? yeah...y not? guess there is always sum thing behind everything...god! haha...duno? wad wld it be like to die..hmm...thats sumthign to wonder...thats sumthing everyone thinks abt i think in sum moment of their life..haha..i tot seriously of commiting suicide in sec 2 i tink..hahhaa..wondering whether to jump dwn frm the sch building...mayb pple will stop me...or mayb i'll juz be a memory..hu noes? well...wad keng ee once said is true...no body listens to nobody these days...hahaha...i'd probably be part of a memory..when i die..where wld i go..will i noe? will i be..."conscious"? hahaha..yah..consciouS...hahaha...yep..will i be able to think? i can;t go sch no MORe...can i? i can;t love no more...can i? i can't feel either i guess...or prob i'll juz cease to exist...or mayb i'll be sum dust mote hanging arnd...with nothing....nothingness inside the void...i wanna be dragged into the forest....hahaa...ok...thats kind of out of pt...but i can't realli concentrate..wheeeeeee..
i miss.....J....hahaha..and OG4...and DELTA...and meikWAN!!!!!...wahhh....wonder how u are...hahaha..yep..i hate PW!...yepyepyep...lIFe is like a hamburger..u never noe wad u are goin to get in btw...oh ya.! i bought 2 shirts n a pair of shoes today...my mum saysmy red shoes sux...wei!..hahaha..think its quite nice...coz he says its niCE!!! hahaa...*muachx..
oh ya...pple hu smokes out there...sTOP at once...it sux..i wonder why pple like to smoke...if they like the smoke so much...y blow it ouT?...shdl swallow it rite...hahaha...think its a waste of time..juz sucking it in and blowing it out again...if u find it fun..u prob love blowing bubbles..and that.again..is out of pt..hahhaa..watEVR~....wheeee.e..i lOVe everyone.Love is...change...it brings out the best of u...and then again..it brings out the worst..ahhaha..i made a bet with mich woo today...its gonna be fuN!...hahaha...think...the hu will b shoCKed...wheeeeeeeeee...yepyepyep...miss nc...*muachx...
there's a hero...if u look inside ur heart......i dun need...coz i got one le!!!! hahaa...lol...i love pw....

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heehee....juz feeling real weird today...felt as if my cheekbones are gonna kena cramp or sumthing...wahahaha=PPpPpPp...that is prob the outcome after having a great day out with u!!..hahaha..stoopid bearbear....hRRumph...hahaha...=D...hmm...really loh...1st time have such a happy time at bukit timah ULU places....great for a rendezvous...but we did nothinG!..hahaha...bLeah~~...yeah...had a hair cut today....at 1st my mum cut my fringe...look like frm cheeNA lANd....now i look lyk from japUN....alamak!.hahahha..=P nvm..he says its nice...so it muz be...hahaha...yEAH!...=) hmm...think the hair wash was really greAT...*sigh*...siao liao...hahaha...yEAH!...monsoon at jp...u all shld try...whee~=)
yepyep....hmm..very long never go out with og4....can sumone PLS...PLSPLSPLSPLS arrange sumthing ...sum outing..i really miss everyone...=)...yah...and also DELTA 03!!!..hee....yEpz~....sigh...good ole 1st 3 mths...how times fly...now is already the coming to the end of promos...yah....
still remember when i came to jj...hmm...was a shy and gentle and demure and great and innocent and pure gal frm an all girls' sch!...yep...(PS: i still am) =D...yah...then quite quiet i tink..wahhaha...yah...then i remember the horrible and EXPENSIVE catering food in the renovating canteen..WhoA...cheat my money sia...hahaa...then got to noe this great bunch of frens...hu at 1st so "quiet" and "gentle" and the list goes on..........hey! that sounds familiar...whahaha...yeah man...yup...bLeah...had really great times at chung nyun...i miss the place loh...sigh...y everything good muz be taken away...nvm..i still have all of u!!!...and of coz...hEEx....*u noe hu*...yEAH!...=pPpPpppp....then had a crush on ddq....days of cap ball and K box and chicken pies....sigh...life have never been better...and when i finally decided to apply for NJ...my heart juz broke...and i cried for a few days...hAI...sad things...shldn't recall...yup...luckily didn't got in...or else..i wldn't be with special pple...hee=) now everyone sort of drifting away...but i'm glad i once got to noe these peepx...and hope for many gatherings and strong bonds to last us a lifetime!! wheee...i LOVE EVERYONE!!!....I LOVE U! U and U! die..in a loveydovey mood...muz b becoz of sumone...hahaa...it CLD be U..U! YES U!..aren't u happy u're reading such a blOG? lol...lAME lah...yuP...thats the way i am...accept me...
ok...quite a long entry...mostly recalling...oh ya
do u have a band-aid?
coz i scrapped my knee when i fell for u...=)
*muachx...hope the world becomes a better place with less violence and all the goodness spread by god to the rest of the world....despite all the sadness...hope there are tinges of happiness touching everyone's hearts at sum particular special moments in their lives.....care for the person dearly next to u...if someone should show care to those hu love u..why not U? (albert king's ad)...wheeeeeee...i'm craZY...

"will i be there when u call me in the middle of the nite
will i keep the rain frm falling down into ur life..
i promise..i promise...i promise
i will."

Darling..i will..=)

hellO!!!
hehe...one has to have many variations...i wanna use BOLD today!!! wheeee...hahaha...these few days have been great...dun ask me why..i juz feel that way...wahahah..no lah...its probably due to the precious and tender moments that i have shared with him...hahax=P yeah man...=) can't stop smiling...happy gal...thats the way i am...mayb i'm living in a disillusioned world...if i am..i wanna be trapped in here forever...and of coz with sumone inside as well..hahaha..=P love do indeed come in many forms...and i'm glad i found u ....hahahx...yeap..uWA...wheeee...lol
sighz...head pain...yesterday i went swimming...i slid off the float and hit my head can..shIT...hahaha..yah..then bathing that time...gong gong de...went to hit another part on the wall partition...sux..my head a bit splitting..haha...but nvm...try thinking of u..then it wld go away...yeah...can't wait for tomorrow...another new beginning...another new experience...another manymanymanymanymanymany moments with u...hahahaha=PP....think i going mad...mad over u...hhahhaa...hmm...i hao xiang never really tok much abt exams huh....hahaha..well..its OK i guess....
wheeeeeeeee......."i wanna make u smile...whenever u're sad...carry u around...when ur athritis gets bad..all i wanna do..is grow old with u..." this kind of our song lah..hahah...was mesmerised when u sang this...sighx...hahaha! i'm mad.

heLLO!!!! hehex......wheeeeeeeeee....today was gREAT!...hehe...dunno why...=P okok lah...juz went out loh...yiPPEE...hahax...siao liao...yah..hmm...very weird..now...tell to the public abt wad u went thru...hmm..i better not reveal..hahah!
=PPpPppp
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..hhahaax...i'm in love.
hahahx...hmm...yesterday took my O level cert...then heard the rest going for recess...sighz...10.05 bell...never forget...=)...i miss crescent...hai...next mon onwards have the impt pRomos papers...shit lah...i hope i really will pasS at least...if not...i'll probably juz break down and beng kui or sumthing,..buT...i shldn't think too much rite..ahhahx=P yUP...coz i'm top of the world noW!!!..hehhehee=)
die....wads me n mixing colOURs...oh yah...u noe that advertisement...dunno wad australia.."i can see the rainbow...too.."....very nICE lohx...sighz....=)..i going UWA!!!!!!!!!!! WHeeeeEE!!!!...yippe...though...cherryn cldn't come with me...sIGHx...i'll definitely miss her..but..=D...cherryn...i buy u sumthing frm perTH K!!>..heex...i'll take pictures too!...with..u noe hu...Wahahah..no lah...pian ni...yuP...but i really will b a bit lost without u...siGHz...nvm=)...in case u all dunno wads UWA...its university of westERn australIA!...yeAH man...hehe..a kind of attachment......can go places..then faRm STAY!...yEAH!!!!..wheeeee....but heard have a lot of flies there at this time of the year...hahax..nvm...jason going also..haha...plus mich..and sum of my claZmates...heez...=P
yuppERdiDOODOO!!!>..hahaha...die..haven start ohn my maths...nvm..=P...still busy recollecting how i tingle when i'm with u...wahaha..siao liao...hmm..mich bdae n candy's bdae coming...wad to get wad to get...i hate it loh...very scared i missed out sumone's bdae also...then gotta think of pearly's bdae also..and of coz denise...haix.....=)...i miss everyone...yup...

" when i fall in love...it will be forever...
or i'll never...fall in love.....
in a restless world like this is..
love has ended before it's begun..
and too many moonlight kisses..
seem to cool in the warmth in the sun
when i give my heart...
it will be completely....
or i'll never give my heart.....
and the moment..i can feel that..
u feel that way too...its when i fall in love....with U..."

=)..thats for U...U and U...heex...

helOo....=D
wow...now the font can change coloUR..siao liao..either this bloggy thingy is improving or i'm laGGIng...hahah..i think its not the latter...so watever.~...=p hahax..yeah..went back to crescent that day...dunno why..so alienated...hai..the culture of the sch seems to b changing...or is it juz me...=)...its ok..as long as able to see my ex cadets looking great...and jamIE! hahaha..yeah...=D....they got many marksmen...(heard so)..hehe..conGRats!!!...
yeah...muz explore colours siA~...hhahax...sighx..think i've fallen into the well..hahah..not hopelessly yeT~...bLEhx...yeah...yesterday was the BEST time i toked to him...it was like WOW...u're like grinning frm ear to ear and ur face seems to b having spasms...hehehe...=PPpppppppPPPp..yEAH...saw an all black person todAY~...woooowheeeeeee...hahahx...today had lessons too...hELO...weads with the education system...HOLIDAYS is NOT = to mORe lessons...siao la....hai...nvm...tts the way of life..u never get wad u wan...unless u rebel and start staging a protest on the streEts....oh yah...
i hope all the children N those hu have passed on frm the chechen's attack in russia...will be safe in heaven frm now and till forever...coz those asses are really inhuman..and if they wanted to get attention..they've gotten it man..yeah...bA**a**s....and stoopid muddled women...dun wanna comment no moRe...coz nothing can ever make up for the anguish and loss..not ever~
yeap..oh yah...i going to JE library to do CIp this thurs n fri after mr leow's lessons///wooHOO///....hahaha..i until now haven gone there to take a look loh...can u believe it!!!!!...shUCKs...exciTed...u all muz b thinking i mad sia...hahahZX=PP....yeah...hmm..wondering whether i wanna b ogl next yr...think pretty fun and nice loh...can relive those 1st 3 mths again.................or will i? =) ciaO...everyone...GOOD lUCK for ur O lEVELS...and A levELS!....and PROMOS!...and watevER eXAMS~!!....for the promos pple..in JJc..lyk DUH...hahaa..its juz abt 1 more mth..jiayOU a bit more..and we'll be FREE!!!!!..hehe~...*or so we tot*...but hey..izzn't it already an iroNY that our promos start on a chiLdrEn's dAY~?0_0

hey PPLE!!!! shucks...hahahaa...few months pass again...oh yah,..think u all noe le...very qiao loh..have two person in jj hu lOOK REALLYREALLY like winter and wall loh...siao liao...so freaky...hand of fate?...dunno...dun care...hahaha..got sumone else in mind le..lol...yeah...woodlanDS!!! thats wad i call him...hehe..hEY...it all starts with W!!!...WEI!...wads wrong with the world mama...okok...mayb its due to the stress..haha..promos coming..and i'm really terribly afrAid...really loh...u think its easy at 1st...jc life is....once u stop...and slack...the homework will juz keep piling..u're learning new stuff and if u dunno how to catch up..u're dead...hai..juz like the situation i am in noW>..ahhhhhhhhhhh....he bi dang cu ne..lol...waTever..~=P
yeah...miss crescent....next week is teachers' day...and guess wad...wah lao....jj giving each student 3 mineral bottle to bring back to the alma mater...its really DIAOx...hhahahaa..nvm.think i'll drink it myseLf...hahaha...yeah...how i wish its 1st 3 months again...slack how much u wan no one will caRE...ahhaha..yeah...but good things really dun last...treasure them while u can...=)
today had mass dance...went really siao again...remind me of the national camp..when me n viki...ERMmmmmm...hahaha...let's not go there...sighz...juz thought abt it these days...i've not really got much to love in crescent..mostly its juz ncc...and the frens...and the food..hahaha..and yah...ms chua...ok lah...she made me wad i am today...and i have lots to thank her for..hahaa..yeah...but dunno y sumhow i think she dun like me...probably becoz last time i always give her trouble and always never do hwk with clARA...WAHAHAHA....clara i miss U!!...whenever i never do hwk jiu hui xiang ni wor...hehe..hONOURed?...hahahax....hope to see u on the field sumday...in touch rugBY...hahaha..tt day i went to pjc's rugby carnival...saw yokemay...hehe...soprry YOKEY!!!...i caught u ..hahaha..u noe wad i mean..yeah!....sighz...muz train up my stamina sia...OH NO...gotta go...mr gou mao lesson...giving back econs paper...mISS YA alL!!!.....going back crescent le....tok to u all abt woodlands sum other day!!!! hahahaa..ciAO..miss og4

hey hey....hhahaavery long never bLog le....really no time loh..as in ..NO TIME 0_0
sighz...jc life quite difficult to cope sumtimes..but..its fun!..haha.think mayb its becoz xingle n cherryn there with me..hahah..but made many new frens..yah..sighz..very long never go back crescent le...no time..everyday..ALMOST everyday...end so late..summore now have night progRammes...oh no..mich muz b commenting that i am romantisicing again..nvm..lol..
hmm..sumtimes miss nc..nvm..enough hwk to keep me occupied..lol..my thighs hurt..haha..stoopid lunges frm yesterday's pe...wonder how am i going for touch tomorrow..hmm..truthfully..found that touch very competitive..think the physical all quite exciting and strategizing..very shuang feeling after training though tired..u NOE?..ahhaha..i muz b siao..yah..quite stressful...=)
hmm..now got sumone..nice person..hahh!..really great~=D wonder where the path may lead to..seems to b fraught with risks...and anxieties along the way..haha..or mayb i'm juz thinking too much~=P
shuCks..tomorrow have cheena listening..and i miss my mum...she go india..hahah..for work..can't wait to see her on suNDAy...~~heehee

yo everyone.......hahah=) very long never blOg liao...i lian diary also never bother to write...nowadays a bit can't b bothered..haha..;lazy to write sumthing....=P
damn bored...now 1 sumthing...haven slp...i miss ddq...hai..he so damn cute loh.....shit..unDescriBable...but there is lyk...SOooooooooooooo many pple in sch liking him...got fan club those kind...how to compEte with them??????????? ahhhhhhh...i dun wan another wall thingy to start again..hmm..maybstart liao...ddq noes hu i am..noe i like him...does tat situation sound familiar?,,,hahha..but ddq is cuter than wall..less egoistic...and cooler...damn~...i noe on love fiesta...i and my frens were hepling the bookshp aunty sell stuff...teddybear and flowers.....u noe wa.d..we went up to him with the bears,...*(quite cute lah)...haha..then be4 that we already fan ta with flowers..now he see us again...eUrpx..u all understand?...hahah..i also dunno myself..we show him the bears...then he was lyk..Erm...one bear 5 bucks loh....NO KIDDING...and u noe wad...he got out his wallet.*shit.never see wad brand*....yup..and took out 10 bucks...was giving him the 5 bucks change...when he juz grab 2 bears..smile a BIT lah..then walk off...we were lyk...GAPING there.,..OMG>..pearly and michelle were lyk...saying he very frightenening.......guESS wad.......i think that...that is juz TOTALLY soooooooooooo cOOL...wahahahahaha=P
hmm...mayb that was crazzy....but quite cool loh...oh man...and yup..of coz..i did the obvious..i kept the 10 buCKs...wahahah=P...watever...
i LOVE JJC man!!!!!!...dun think i'm gonna leaVE it...hope my results wun b worse than prelims...diediedie...hope everything will b OK...hai...hope i can becum an OGL(orientation grp leader)...yup..and the frens and pple there are so niceee!!!....will miss them so much...coz i noe good things dun last forewver...hai...though hope that i faster noe the results...but i also dun wanna noe..coz the mood after that period will be lyk...a FUNERAL...sort of lah..coz its lyk...lets say if ur frens do badly..while u get not bad...wld u b cheering in frnt of them?...of coz not rite...muz b sad with them...then muz confort all those thing...(of coz there is the possibility that i'm being comforted)...=)...wateevr....hai...never do hw..ms yap gonna kill me......
hai...went back crescent...feel weird...alienated...dun wanna tok abt it...its lyk now my loyalties lie sumwherte else...hai..~..my hands tired of typing liao..hahha...till next time...i MISs everyBODY MAN!!!!!....the whole NCC contigent...the FRENS...ex CLAZmATES...og 4 ROX TILL the end of time...and...DDQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss u so much..while u ignore me~...it hurts juz to see u being oblivious to my existance and walk past me lyk any other stranger...the feeling sucks man...to wanna see the person coz u miss him...but dun wanna see again..coz u no longer wanna subject urself to more pain and misery...

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i'm so pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrgghhhh...peanut pissed me off...i hate that person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y..y....muz the person react in that manner....wad type of attitude man!!!!!!! qi si wo la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

going for tennis tomorrow.....then go back crez...damn...if i'm gonna piss anyone off...its that damn peanut's fault...so if i never give happy face...dun b offended........arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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