feel like a shitty empty hollow husk. maybe hairy on the outside, haha but so bored on the inside. dammit
at work now...what do i do? SALEs...SORTING..fiLING...AHHH...then the cycle starts all over again...it really kinds of get u dwn...at least in subway i get to meet more pple...here..the same blardy figures,,,UGH@!..@$@%^@#($^&%#^@%#@# F all the numbers..BURN THEM!!! ALL CIVILISATION shld cease to exist. let's be backwards...there are certainly advantages to being backwards..sigh.,.however..let's admit it...all of us are already nurtured and have made luxury into a habit ..backwards society? we gotta wait till all machines break dwn or destroy the earth.

got heart palpitation now..got it frm my mum.
last nite was sucky...dreamt that i got the *gui shang shen* and got ambitious marathony nose...damn.
i love this quote ...."Ambition is the shelter for failure." so true.

yo.
ha...so deep in thought now..sighx..gotta read a lot of newspapers nowadats.. in order to get into what i want..i better strive for it this time..elaine jiayOU! yeah.
sometimes just wonder why do some pple just keep reading into things..actions...life is such a facade..a constant play...a constant judgement...so many things must be taken into consideration...religion..politics...geopolitics..ethics...blah blah and more blah. no one can ever satisfy anyone. aren't they tireD? but someone really gotta do these things i guess...what a kerfuffle from me.
anyway..yesterday was really a mood swing day...was damn pissed off by everything in the morning, then upon meeting my friends and jason..i became happy again...guess sumtimes it is really v stifling at home....AHHH..anyone can help me kill my dog..i c\have to keep cleaning up his urine after him...ALWAYS ON THE FLOORR..never the newspaper..but sigh...i love pootpoot...he's just so cute..whatever man..:(
hmm...feel that nowadays really love my baby more n more...not being able to see him and constanly thinking of him has really brought us closer no matter wat...=) last time i kept having doubts...but no more darling..i truly love u. u're always there for me...thank you...*hugx...
oh yah,,,my fren told me before that better not drink sugarcane frm dirty places...i mean like..even if the place loook clean..LOOK where they put the sugarcane..izzit in a buket or leaning against the wall? haha..BEWARE...leaning against the wall is a NONO. coz u noe.,..plants suck up stuff..so..HEHE.all the dirty water flushed onto the grnd and all the ickybitsyshitty stuff will get SUCKED up too!!! whee...then here comes the big hairy hand of the sugarcane seller...put it thru the whirring machine..*ZZZYYYYIIIIINNNGGG* *drip drip drip* alll the "juicy" sugarcane juice..*YUMS! hahaha then..gd luck to u babes.HEh
i'm so bored!!!!! the world sumtimes look so dreary...the world is shrinking...the water levels are rising...the earth is becoming hotter on one end while the other is getting colder...the air purity are getting worse..the rubbish are piling up..more pple dying..more new variety of diseases introducing themselves to start an epidemic..the disintegration of impt values..DIEDIEDIE! an increasing number of pple dying from ignorance disease and indulging themselves in high technology and dying every minute. DIE!!!!!! woohoo. every breath u take now is a breath nearer to death....lets all take in deep breathS***SNIFFFFFFF**** whee...die pple..oblivion is the best from all the rubbish that all of us are struggling through just to keep our mere existence alive and using our existence as an excuse to prolong the misery of many generations to come.

actually...sigh...wonder what our existence on earth is for...just satisfying those who live arnd us? there are so many different pple on earth..sumtimes when i sit in the car..i think...what wld i be worried abt and thinking abt and desire abt if i were that person sitting blankfaced looking at the busstop. when u sit in a plane...what wld i be doing..what wld i be seeing..what wld iu be facing in my dreary bleak future if i was sumone down there...the tiny meagre breath that the person take to try to reach greater heights called achievement in life.,.but so what...achieved..done that,been there. in the end? u're still gonna slowly break down into dust motesisn't whaty is depicted in movies...books...songs...tv programmes...all the high living discovery travel living programmes? all that is not what u are going to experience. continue dreaming. after u have experinced what u have alwasy wanted to experiuence sumtimes u will think...THATS IT? delusion is a great gift to oneself. b. haven u wished u want sumthing..like fall in love..or go for that holiday u always wanted. when u get it...it really ut dun do it for long. coz realism will hit u back ten folds of every one fold longer that u hide urself away.

Life sure is great.

hahaha..dun get depressed by my entry...i'm not worth it..actually..i am going to contradict myself.,HA, actually...life is truly simple. so what if u turn into dust motes. *kind of scary huh* but still u noe u've achieved whethever u cld before u disintegrate....u noe u've loved and being love in return before...even pootpoot doesn't really complain abt being bored...he just finds plaeasure in giving me a kick upon seeing his urine everywhere...and biting his tail...going round n round...well..silly but simple. thats life. its ok if u ain't rich. it's ok if it ain't exciting. it's ok if it sucks big time now. remember the many blessings u have. cry if u have to. punch if u have to. sumtimes life just gotta go on. no matter how meaningless it actually is, u gotta drag urself along. that the is the real challenge. URSELF.

yEAH..,.sleepy..but gotta plough through more newpapers...tata~ pictures another time.

yoz.
damn sian nowadays...hmm..A level results..not bad. damn surprised when i saw my super long name up on the ohp...but well..the future that beholds itself before me is rather ...hmm..wide? super lots of opportunities...mayb i shld take geog..or sociology? or economics? AHhh....sucks to even think abt it...tomorrow go nus and ask them qns ba=) mayb i shld apply for scholarship...sighx. lost my essay writing skills....and my gp sucked. how to e2ven get thru to the interview round...
i miss my baby soooooo much!!! sigh...everyday stuck in the aircon office...doing endless piles of filing n sorting...DAMn. accounting sucks. trying sumthing new..MAY NOT always b good.HAHAHA...i can;t wait for LUNCH with my baobei! hahaha sigh..wad to get for his bdae.. no idea...no matter wad i buy in the whole wide world..nothing is more precious than me HOR DARLING!!! hehehehe *grinZ widely.
oh YA. i was so damn pissed the other day...abt the tuition...u see..i had my 1st tuition...then i gotta rusj to the next tuition in BUKIT PANJANG OK.....not bukit batok,..not my neighbour..B.U.K.I.T P.A.N.J.A.N.G....it is damn far for me..and i took a taxi there! then happily rushed thru my dinner of packes rice wout finishing it...and went for my tuition teaching...guESS WAD. i arrives at the door and she told me she mei you kONG! means no time for ME! DAMMIT! wah lau eh...she say ..oh my bro taking me out later..i lost ur hp no. so cannot tell me be4 hand..and i cannot teach her at that time..*( o so my fault rite*) so i had to go all the blooody way back home fuming!!!! AH! so convenient to lose my hp no. AH! getting angry when i think abt it again...and i tole the mother...guess wad she said.."O..like that loh" *BOX HER AH...i box already then say oh i didn't noe it will hurt..o like that loh..

O LIKE THAT LOH!!!!!!!!!

ha..no lah...my anger subsided already..=D anyway./..v lazy to post pics online...another time ba..=) i love all my frens..i miss all of them..esp cherryn n xingle...so long nev go out with u all...and its like.,..next time we will be seperated...xingle will go china and get new china frens who knows how to speak proper chinese unlike me..*Sobx.* while cherryn can get her fav subject in ntu..art media n design..while me...lost in translation. help.