just finished watching this korean drama about an older woman who has been hurt by marriage.. being afraid to commit once again.

the hurt is definitely not easily mended and as easily as it could be said about 'time will heal all wounds', the process is really unimaginably painful.

how much trust can a person put in another person in this day and age. With lovestruck promises like I will take care of you forever.. what values does it still embody with the fact that there are still chances that the person may stray or the 'love' will die down one day and things are just not working out for both parties?

distrust. dislike.

fed up.

hate hate hate tension.

so sian and my head keep whirling with all kinds of thoughts. How do u expect me to study for Wed's exam. I HAVEN't even started ANYTHING! and the readings are damn blardy thick.

I hate emotions.

how am I going to trust in any future marriage partner?