I feel so drifty this semester. Doesn't even feel like sem has started. But things are gradually heating up, though I'm not feeling it yet. Deadlines and assignments are piling up. But I guess the festive cheer and excitement from the upcoming Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day is swirling around!
I can't wait to finally shop by myself tomorrow. I can't wait to find a nice facial shop. I can't wait to meet Sandy after so long. I can't wait for Saturday's 04A1 gathering. I can't wait to make a decision on what I should do after I finish my exams.
On one hand, I really REALLY wanna go try something like go Cambodia help out or a job hat can possibly post me overseas. Damn exciting right. Life can offer so much. But some things still hold me back. Like practicalities. If I work overseas, I will worry about my dear mum. I will miss my baby TERRIBLY. If he goes overseas, he even wanna bring me along. How can I possibly do so and leave him behind? And furthermore, with his weird graduation date, and our planned trip after that, how to fit my working plans in? Do internship till august? Or get a perm job then take leave?
SiAN.
Either I worry too much or I really should take all these in consideration.
ANyways...
Happy Birthday Mama!! :)
U're still looking young at age 55. When I earn more money I bring u to Beijing 101 k!! hahahaAnd Happy Birthday XINGLE!!!
So long never meet up with u. hahaha I really should make the effort next week:)
I feel like such an anti-social animal these days. My only brother is so busy with work and his life, i got no relatives here..cousins or aunties.. nil. I have limited number of friends. Seriously just my mum, baby and pootpoot.
Sometimes feel that my life is quite saddening. How narrowly scoped it is. I can only wish for so much more, much more enriching and purpose-filled. At age 22, this should be the prime of my life. I hope to quickly graduate and meet more people out there. Doing real work and actively seeking and molding a better me when I have more experience and money.
