"This is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end...and it goes on and on my friend...some pple start to read it without knowing what it was and they continue reading it forever just because this is a post that doesn't end..." Adapted from one ncc song

MUAHAHAA..dun slap me..trust me..this is GOING TO BE a very long post. ahahha lots of pics!! woohoo...next week i'll probably b very stressed. so dun be worried if i put up anything negative ya=)

1stly..went out with my baby..actually..forgot where we went. hahaahah oOPs~=P but it surely must be enjoyable..haha..well 1st up..ME AND MY BABY! yay..haha my face is so damn fat lah..
haha..look at the fats aaround the cheek there..UGH HELP! anyone gimme free slimming treatment...yeah rite..i wish. HAHA.. i wish cellulite never existed. DAMN them all to hell. WHY ARE THERE good food in the world! if ony the whole entire universe only fed on lean meat, fish , vege and fruits...then evryone would be pretty slim..ut then again in those circumstances i may eat an excessive amount of those food and become pretty fat for a pretty slim girl. understanded? hahaha..neither do i.

ok..i accidentally put it to medium size...lazy to change la...

ahh..my baby trying to strighten out my hair..aahaa mayb its UR fault baby. ha. lol. u not happy with my hair so i went to cut it. HAHAA=P but no difference.hai~

pretty pretty ME! ha...actuall sumtimes is not i trying to be zhi lian..i am just checking my hair..so must use the only device i have..my handphone camera! yEAh...thats my self delusion theory..everyone agree with me?? *cups ear and hears loud grunts of approval* oh yeah.

oh ya...saw this girl in the pic above when i was going to meet my baby..think that this matching of clothing is abit not very nice lah..ahha..can say i mean or what..but YA..i dun think green jackets can suit everyone..those are for COOl pple..not wear skirt go orchard kind of pple..this combination really not v nice..what do u all think? mayb it not up to me to say whether its nice or not...everyone has thier own idea of what is pretty and ugly..well to me thats ugly. HA i think subtle pretty with simple elegant clothes really can bring out one's beauty..dunno lah

yay! me n my baby go vivocity for the 1st time..not v nice...coz most of the shops not open..wanted to watch in the enw cinema..supposed to be the biggest and nicet one..wonder whether its true..going to check it out next thurs i think=) gonna watch death note..pearly says its nice...haha..anyway...i always thought..models in pictures always smile so nicely..my smile is always either unsightly, fake or the standard kind. SO BORING! some pple close mouth....some pple will actually open a bit! so i ask my baby to show me..

SEE! its open abit. now my turn...guess what.
i give up. i really suck at this open mouth a bit to look like i'm laughing a bit and am a natural in smiling...i shall stick to my standard one...


ok...WHAT are the companies in charge of balloon manufacturing doing these days?!! these balloons look like condoms in the making that come in orange flavour, cherry, lemon, green apple and blueberry lah for goodness sake...and the ones below are more like showing the "mountain peaks" after they are being blown up. AHHHHHH so metaphorical. or mayb i'm just perverted. *wink*




okok...no more weird stuff..hahaa.. now i spend most of my time with victoria-san. hahah..she is one crazy fella as well...=) hm.i have always wanted to go to NUS's garden..u all noe where it is? the forum there...the centrl library downstairs..SO NICE LAH!!!! especially with the gras..the trees..the benches...and when the wind blows all the flower petals downstairs...


nice rite..ahhaha..though my camera may not capture in nice details...except this girl spoil it..HAHAA so zhi lian..lol same like me...
haha...we started giving in to our hidden heart's desire...*blush*
anyway, me beechun jaslin and cherryn went out to celebrate candy' bDae..ALL OF U COME SO LATE...hrrumph..they say that scorpios always remember grudges easily...i will always remb this grudge...BLEAH. hahahah okok pple..guess where we went..

RED LIGHT District?? NO!! it wasn't my idEA!!! hahahah no lah...its the new cathy cinema...SO NICE RITE...ahhaha..the curtain is damn big..the screen damn wide..for the grand cathy cinema lah..ahah.i watched "the Departed"..the english version of Wu Jian Dao...quite nice..haaha.esp the ending..nice metphorical meaning...=P the show took so long to start so my hands got itchy..took hold of my camera phone and...

yay...everyone loves taking pics with me..ahhaha..and i cut my hair...by then..no diff rite...

Me and my darling cherryn! hehe...2 beauties..=)

me and victoria again! i tot on that day have ritual..indians walking over coals...then can go see and write a report on it...sigh it happened last week...i hate the internet..giving wrong info..

Sri MariamnamTemple..yah..NO coal waiting for us when we reach there...so wht shall we do? me and huiqi and victoria start getting bored and we took pICS! hahaa happy deepavali BTW..HURHUR

this gal is HUIQi..another bu yao lian person...hehehe

yah..and i joined the FASS sport cell thingy..to promote the NUS ARTS OPEN...yeah..at least now i'm doing sumting..u noe...i dunno hw to explain la..i feel more involved those kind of thing..SOCIALIZATION! hahaha..i am a victim of that effectt..hell to it..lol. oh yah..got one of the marketing gy very cute...as in boyboy face...very good talking skills and damn friendly that makes u go in awe..haha.. but if u look at it in a negative perspective..u never noe when he doesn't really mean it if he has such good convincing and talking skills..RITE? hahaa and he got cute dimples too.=) anyway..they have this cute arts dog...

oh yah..and last but not least...i think the guys in my project grp quite ok looking...as in..those kind like the more u look the cuter they become..they quite nice peepx actually=) YAY! i finally have guy frens..haha..but these kind of pple is becoz of project then tok to u..think if other places meet they wun acknowledge u or sumthing..dunno lah..haha...this one is called shayne..

and this one is joel...

they dun really look appealing in these pics rite..lol. i secretly took their pics one..WAHAHAHA stupid guys..WOOHOO~ lol. they prob kill me if they noe it did it without their knowing and even post it on my blog... and this is shaiful!

nice guy...but damn slack. LOL got another girl from china called zhibin..but the guys in the grp like dun really like her...coz she like never contribute much and dun come for meetings those sort..btu she actually quite nice i guess..=)

i love the world at this moment..i never noe when life will become shit in the next. i can't wait for semester 1 to be over man...sigh.. more n more stressful stuff coming rite up!

yo...sorry to make u guys worry..hah..now i'm alright=) just take things as they come i guess..
DAMN! haha i'm hooked onto goong...lol.. keep watching it on youtube n staying up late hrs..i finishing the series soon! so happy..i think shin sumtimes i cute...yul also but circumstances cozed him to change..but sumtimes these love stories are so unreal..entertaining of course, but unrealistic. love realy doesn't happen this way. things dun come to u like what is shown in the moies or books. really. dun hold too high expectations of what ur 1st love would be..u will be a bit disappointed. not say my love story with my bear is not good! ahha..he's the best darling in the whle world..but it doesn't happen in whtever day dreams u may have. ha=) life's delusion to keep u in its grasp and manipulating power.

now more involved in stuff..going to busy man..sigh.. projects..Arts open//this week and next week gonna b tough. bu i made some hi bye frens this week! =) got this guy from the marketing cell..quite cute and great in his toking..great dimples too..but he is not my type. ha. mayb i should get some airhead guys..so that we WOMEN can contrrol them. muahahah.. we rule da world maNN!..wait a minute. WHY MUST BE cool "MAN" why not cool woman? u noe..for example,"wassup woman...yesterday's show is so cool woman..." haha

i feel so fat..as compared to the pple in my sch.. sigh. i'm starting to jog..but it i hard to get rid of eating excessive stuff habit..this sucks. ha.

i love NUS's muchie monkey!! woohoo~ hahah..nice brownie..yumyum.

oh FUCK! i just written such a long post and its all gone. issit a sign? OH FUCK IT FUCK IT. i HATE THIS BLOG this system tHIS EVERYTHING. fuck the whole wide world for its fuckedness. FUCK it. what in the meaning is the meaning of fuck anyway. fuck is the word to scold things but why do i feel better after scolding it? is it a socialisatino and the drilling of the concept in my mind by societal factors? oh fuck it. FUCK U PPLE.

Alls Going Well....i wonder

heh...nowadays doing moe stuff.though sumtimes i feel that in nus like v lonely coz there isn't always someone to share things with me and tok to...always a different person..so the friendships that u make in NUs becomes kind of shot n distant..not like what i had with cherryn back in jjc...sigh...making friends also becomes abit tiring..dun u all think..gotta expose urself again and haiyah..dunno lah=) just try to get by i guess...

wheee....the tuition girl i used to teach in bukit panjang...hehe..the mother wants me back! wheehee...i am so poPUlar wahahaha...bleahx..she is v dissatified with the tutor that she ask me to help her daughter...dunno how much i can help...coz i can't possibly cram her daugther be4 the exams rite...see how lah..MONEYMONEY ROLL IN! hehehe...=P

i joined the FASS club..quite exciting...i joined the sports cell...yea..i like sports..hope i wun cock it up though..for the Arts open..anyone wnna be a captain ball referee on the 28th OCT? HELP ME!!!ahhh..hahah

i miss my baby boy...*muachx..* sumtimes i do feel dejected...like things aren't like they were before...but i guess things change and things mature..its kind of scary...i hate myself..i can't adapt to changes.. like thinking of the future..where i should be heading towards...my dad n mum keep pressurising me to tke up some club thingy...like the toastmasters club those sort of thing to improve ur speech skills...i noe..my speech stuff is like shit...only know how to MM MM haix. then i got not enough of everything..sumtimes i just hate myself. i feel so useless like i can't accomplish much...i haven even accomplish much in life...i seem not to learn anything...i can't seem to see myself working in the future...i am quite useless and redundant actually..no one in the world probably needs me..life goes on even as the dust of ur remains swirl over the land..i wonder what are we all doing here. to learn? to experience? to do sumthing? my mum always ask me to let her go if anything happens to her...she always talk about dying..i hate that. my dad never seems to be there...even if so...for a while befoe he vanishes yet again. if i am my mum. i probably wouldn't want to live. no. i would probably leave and be alone. i dunno. tough choice. heck.

oo...jason's sister gonna get engaged...i need a diet! i can't seem to wake up n do so though...F man. if join some sports gotta make friends and kind of establish who u are and what u can do and ur position in the "tribe" kind of thing.,..its tiring yet again.

maybe i'm just lazy. i miss cherryn aida jaslin beechun shaowen candy denise joelyn xueyi and someone who dun seem to put me in her mind anylonger. to her i'm prob just some stuck up snob. all the promises are forgotten...something precious gone. sometimes i mourn the times and wonder what went wrong. mayb its just me. mayb its just me.oh fuck it. life is so despondant.

i just passed my english test...15/30 phew. hhaaha...but still damn lousy lah...haix..the highest was 29! HELLO! smthing is definitely wrong with u..hahaha. heck..i better jiayou le wor..

oh yah..2 old lady scold me today!!! ahhhhh sigh. the 1st one was when i was going with my mum n dad to sign the tuition grant thingy...my mum was like hurrying me to do sumthing instead of queuing..then she ask me to just go look for my name in the stack of agreements...the old lady came over and scolded me lAH!@ @%^$#%^@#^%!$ hell lah...she say..NOT UR THING U TOUCH FOR WHAT. DUN ANYHOw TOUCH...shit. dun need to shout rite...wahhhh...so paiseh and really hated tt stupid bitch.

2nd one...my mum handed me coins she say go buy newspaper...80 cents...then she line up for the bus 1st...i scared the bus coming le so i faster go run there to buy...i handed the old lady the coins took the newspaper and was about to run off...she was like OEI. only 70 cents in chinese...i tot my mum gave me 80 cents lah...i was like..oh sorry sorry...then she started SCOLDING ME! she ssay...u so rich still dare to bluff old woman's money...one more 10 cents also wanna bluff me...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO! u not happy i give u 20 cents more want or noT! i'm already sorry and u over there niam niam niam niam. wo ye bu shi gu yi de..grrr...ARGH. qi shi wo le la.

BAD DAY. my baby also nev call me. sometimes feel that always is i call him and ask about him. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my pms has arrived probably. SHIT DAMNATION. I HATE EVERYTHING! damn it. and i got the weeks wrong..tot the holiday week was considered as one week...its an ODD week..not EVEN..then i never go for my tutorial this morning..fucka sai. ARGH. damn it. and the new lecturer for new media is like mumbling to himself. there is even a person asking in the forum. the word for human giving ..blahlbla...the fact that she is asking in the forum shos that even though she was at the lecture...watched the webcast already and YET dunnoe what the word was..this is damn bad lah. unless she is a lazy ass who can't b bothered to watch the webcast turn it to the loudest volume and try to catch the word..still cannot go into the computer with a net and catch it. DAMN. Argh. THE WOMAN'S wedding dress is also v ugly btw...i dun understand why u left my brother u witch. HA. marry early just because of a fortune teller's sayings...then if he tells you that u are going to die today then u go have sensual freaking high sex for 24 hrs lah! BAKA Stupid. why are there women like her. marry early and have mroe children coz her BIOLOGICAL clock is ticking. HELLOooo u ARE HOW OLD? 23 this yr. VERY old? zoe tay so old also had such a lovely baby. NO backbone. just wanna hook up man. wt is love.so temporal and fake. maybe its jut a habit. I HATE ALL MEN. *twist off their groin areas boil in hot flowing lava mixed in cooking oil..chop into many different pieces put colouring and sell as indian rojak. HMPH. good riddance.

the holidays are over...i miss shaowen..i have been spending time with them...sadly i can't send shaowen off at the airport though...==( all the best shaowen!!!!!!! take care of urself k..one day we will all go there to see u..(if we got money) better still faster finish studying n come back..haha=)
PICTURE TIME!!! this is when we went to the beach...

me, cherryn, shaowen, jaslin and candy! i love all of u!! all thanks to my expertise of taking pictures and my long hand...woohoo!! i got all of ur faces in here! nice rite! hehee..*muachx.

me n jaslin! and guess what...i found a HUMAN BONE!!!!! ahhhhhhhh....

scary neh.....hehe

i love u cherryn! hahaa..love taking pictures with u=P myb

that is one of the reasons why i miss u so much also..no one can bhb with me to take lots n lots of pic...soBx* tts why all my pictures are only me n jason..ahhaa

and of course...i must

take everybit of my timei have to SLEEP with my baby!!! but...but....but...WAHHH she seems to be rejecting me nowadays! arGH.

i guess i only have myself to sleep and tan ba...*turns my head away*

neext event..i went to work in turf club! quite ok lah... BIG challenge to me can..i gotta take charge of this lucky ip thingy coz it ladies' nite for these old gals who bet...SOME OF THEM keep betting n throwing the tickets to me lah..this lady keep coming race after race..giving me 20 plus each tim lah! the conditions was that every ticket with the purchase of 10 bucks n more can get one hance at drawing in the lucky dip. SHE HAD near 30 each time loh...bugger...SO KIASU! argh..dun say already..and it is so difficult to explain in chinese to these aunties about what the lucky dip is abt..tian ah....hahaha..lucky i got thru..*phew! then i went to meet joelyn! whee..her mum work there...anyway..we got into the exclusive club to eat the buffet! not that great...but hey.i got to sit with the rich buddies and look at them betting while tasting their lavish spread of food and rich taitais gathering there and getting premiium seats to watch the horse race...well..the ups of life...they do have the CASH..I WANT THEIR MONEY!!! GIMMEGIMME! hahaa..yah..then..*drroollll* there is the fashion show! ahahha hunky muscular guys!!!

cute??? hahaha...some of them not v cute...like unshaven with moutache...HU oN EARTH want a model with a moustache..UGH...prob thoe for the taitai to bao or sumthing..hahaha..=P the gl models walk so fast..and their body o lean and flat...i cldn't catch any of them in action..ahhaa but guess what...if u all look at the only joelyn picture above..u can see 3 gals behind her laughing n talking rite...they were carying their cmeras..i tot i wanted to take them ogling at the male models..but guess what..WOOHOO!!! *faints..* i got the scene of a lifetime..haahahaha...if u noe me well..u surely wonder how i survived it...lemme me share with u..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwww
*wolf whistle* there ARE NO GUYS in singapore with that..i mean..*clears throat* (except the past mak) hardly any guys with tt..oh pls..ahhaha...look at the girls behind..they are GIGGLING...oh man..someone..give me a fan..i need a breather...phoa..is is hot in here or WHAT? fans myself vigorously...hahaha I CAN't see how many pac there are lah..mayb he got penis veins..ee...i dun like penis veins...eeee...nono...so erxin..hahaha

then i went out with me baby!
no..that is not my baby..ahhaha..though it looks damn cute lah..=)

dunno why my baby actin like that man behind him..ahahha!! no lah..i forced him..=P cute maaaaa

then my baby surprised me with this!! heee...guess what izzit...

A SUNFLOWER!!!!! hee...my baby knows me best..i love u darling=)

yay...so pretty sunny and mature...JUST LIKE MEE..muahahaha..hahha

yah...today i go study with beechun in the library also....can u see any change in me? haha..i drew my eyebrows...the lady told me to pluck...candy..go with me soon leh..hmm.. actually i didn't raw till v dark those kind..i was petrified that it would look terrily like auntie draw those kind or like sumthing weirdly similar to a catterpillar being stuck to my forehead..ahaha