Indulging in New Fats

Anyone can tell me where I can find a new body? Lol. fat hopes.

Indeed, I have new hopes for the new year, and none of them have 'fatness' involved. Ok. mayb Fat Bonus, Fat Salary could be one fatness that I can deal with. But Fat Body, kns. I need that changed. Pronto.

I need to get involved in different sort of fats.. those that are healthier.. like fatty dreams, fatty pockets full of cash. Work, I can deal with that. Just a matter of dealing with my procrastination and indecisiveness.

As for body... HOW TOOOOOO. i love eating. One bag of chips, gotta finish them all.

Exercise - no. 1 excuse, I've just exercised. Can eat more. Pui.

But since I have slimmed down before, I believe I can do it again. At that time, I was so damn close to my target when I just gave up and om nom my way all the way back to my fatness. Wtf.

Look at this recent fat me. it's like oh my fucking gosh. I might as well jump down a building in shame.

Camera angles seriously don't mean shit in reality. Because in real life, you Are looking like shit, according to the shittified body ideals set by society. Those who are skinny yet keep whining and saying how much they need to slim down, they need to jump down the building before me. Because they don't relish and treasure what they have.

As for why I haven't jumped down, is because I have other things to be much grateful for. Despite the things I lack, I am grateful for the things that I have. A complete though dysfunctional family. A healthy (for now) though seriously out of shape body. An above average family background that allows me to purchase things I want, give me opportunities that some others might not have even though they want to. A job that allows me to travel & meet people high-up though they deprive me of certain benefits. Even the most basic, like a toilet bowl for me to defaecate in should be a luxury in life that we should be thankful for. Haha.


So for this year, am just gonna concentrate on my job, make the most of my travelling, work on loving J more & more, be more updated on news, make more friends (I wonder how I'm gonna accomplish this), make my money grow by saving or investing, and of course.. be healthier by slimming down. :)

1st goal: 10 kg down by May. I can do this.