I am a two headed snake.

Sometimes.. i think i need some serious slapping.

Why do I keep making the same mistake!!!!!
Yew Stewpid heart.

I know yet I don't know.

I am clear and yet perhaps I choose not to be.

It's a danger zone yet I get so attracted to it and keep accepting the advances. Slowly but surely, it starts growing on me. hell.

I'm like in a rut nowadays.

Being alone and unmotivated to work is bad enough. Having a nagging parent who is not only unsupportive but also keep bringing up how bad my job is is a fucking pain in the neck.

Feel so disconnected with society. How on earth do I go about expanding my social circle??!
Sometimes I just wanna go party to enjoy and just get real high. But I don't think I know any group of frens who do that. And as one's generation gets older, people start settling down, people starts categorizing themselves under the 'I'm too old & too tired to club anymore' section. But that's besides the point.

Maybe that's why I get so dependent on people. And like them so easily. Is it because I crave attention? I crave affection?

I need to break away from this depressing state called me. It's plain pathetic upon reflection.
I need to get busy.

I feel so disgusted with myself sometimes how much I miss J. The more I meet him the more I miss him.

I know the difference yet perhaps I ....

I need to wake the fuck up. That's what. Well, but maybe later.. sigh.