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Well.. we're kinda not really officially back together.. and this development has been quite sudden.. previous guy is still super sweet.. but I've finally made a decision to end it because it's just not what I was finding and despite trying for around 4 mths plus, I think although he is really sweet and innocent, but maybe I need something else.. Passion is still missing. The connection. To me, love should be easier. At least even in the honeymoon period. I still believe in sparks, in stealing kisses, hugs and the lingering reluctance to let each other go while saying goodbyes.
And I can't believe that after 7 and a half years together, 6 months apart, me and J are still this way and that much in love with each other when we met up again a few days ago.
I finally believe that it is really not a habit that my thoughts keep going back to J. The support, maturity and guidance that J can provide me is what I need. As for what I can provide him.. I'm not very sure.. but I just hope that I can be his support and hopefully keep him from spiralling down into depression again. I have so much weaknesses, but his unconditional love and connection with me is so heartwarming.. the kisses just so familiar.. the way i fit into his arms when he holds me.. :) tough to find..
I'm not sure whether my heart has finally settled down, but now, it is reveling in absolute happiness. Challenges definitely lie ahead. Him being busy in his work and the times when he disappears again.. but I guess we'll just try to make things work again. :)
These few days are akin to a dream come true. I'm happy :)
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