It has been a rather eventful day... getting through two friggin individual presentations, which thankfully is quite slack, coz can read off notes when presenting..if not i tell u.. memorise like shit. When I say shit, its really quite jialat. Imagine a reading that is 70 plus pages, and you gotta read it off google books and summarise the damn thing into ppt slides to present to the class. And I just realised it the night before, coz I couldn't get the darn book frm the library and the lecturer didn't provide the reading for the class. like wth!? 0_0

Well, its OVER. :) 3 more essays, one poster, 4 presentations and 2 big project write-ups more. HOW COME IT's NOT DECREASING??!?!!! But really, time flies. In a blink of an eye, I'm already at Week 10 of my school term! The pressure of having to find a job/internship is pressing on me already so seriously gotta think of it real soon...

One more month to graduation! And gotta rent my gown soon for the commencement on 12 July. I definitely better not da bao. If not kill myself sia.

Today was eventful not soley because I finished two dreaded presentations, but mostly I met a really nice Christian today:) Perhaps its really a friend-based sort of preaching so its kinda more credible and not so weird, (of course I still have my reservations and cynicism), but I can kinda tell he really believes what he says and he says it so... how do i put it, so naturally! I also think its because he has gone through much hardships before and because miracles happened to him, hence he totally put his faith in God...

How does one have faith in God? Just believing? There are so many questions that one try to logically ask and reflect upon. I am feeling so hurt when I think of my matter, but is it really that bad? Should I talk about it after graduation? I probably will, coz I have not much stuff to do and will naturally dwell on it.

I think once I secure a job, I will sit down and talk with him. I dun care how things trashes out. If living my life means having to get through this obstacle and pain, in order to achieve peace within oneself and just getting through without a guilty conscience, I will do so at all expense. I can forsee so much difficulties and tears, but surely it must be the right way. If there is a God, which I already believe that there is, do help me along this arduous journey, for I really can't do it alone.

My friend said you can control your destiny, but fate is already planned out for you. I dun care what fate has in store for me then, for if destiny is the only variable that I have control over, then I should just go with what I feel best and see what lies ahead...rather than regretting ever doing it ever right? And just get myself mired in more pain.

April: SHIT month
May: Go Malaysia with Cherryn and Aida (and whoever wants)..I want Redang and KL!
Apply intensively for job if can't get one by then.
June: Start job/internship
July: Convocation
Revelation of things

Hmm.. when should I apply for Singapore citizenship? AHahha~