BOOHOO


sigh. been feeling down..insecure.. pretty irritated.. especially towards baby..

Maybe its just PMS. It really sucks big time.

Yesterday went to Cherryn's module art installation.. Think it was really worth going..Its so easy to get lost in your own artistic thoughts.. you can really feel the thought processes that went through those pieces..before they were made, before her classmates and her breathed life and gave meaning to them.


This reminds me of something I felt was quite meaningful in class this semester..

" You only know something is green when you learn that there's green".

Sigh. *feeling real low*..

feel like crying for no reason..

sigh.

Mayb i will try thinking of happier things..

Candy asked me what birthday present I want.

Here is my list: (warning-- can be quite incredible. Pls dun take it seriously. or maybe u can.)

1. 21 tall tan hunky guys. Naked.
2. A chauffeur (preferably a nice smelling one who has no B.O and doesn't smoke) who can drive me around (coz my driving sucks and my fear of accidents is gonna keep me off the roads for quite a while)
3. Slippers..
4. Money. Really running short of them
5. A healthy slim body (instead of giving me one, mayb just encourage me to become one)
6. Nice yummy chocolate (not too sweet)
7. Nice yummy food
8. A pair of River Island jeans (hope they have a sale after exams)
9. To have a really nice hair cut/dye/treatment/wash
10. Colored contact lens which can make my eyes bigger and also acommodate my astimatism
11. Handphone Nokia N95 (saw my dad bought it the other day.. was really niceee btw, its 800 plus here.=P)

12. an overseas trip with just baby, me.
13. shoes... i need to head down to far east soon
14. a waisted belt.. if thats what u call it. but scared.. it will look awful on me
15. something sexy
16. Anna Sui body lotion..pls dun get the wrong one. Even I dunno which one izzit. I think it was their previous range. Sad.
17. blusher
18. rubber band. Those simple but nice.. mayb a bit of glitter but not too much fuss.. I AM JUST TOO FUSSY!!

19. Nora Robert under the pen name of J.D RObb books.. I haven completed the series..I only have Naked, Glory, Immortal, Vengeance, Divided, Survivor, Innocent, Born n Creation in DEATH. If you got the money to splurge on me, splurge more. muahaha

20. Julie Garwood also..I think I still need Gentle Warrior, Rebellious Desire, The Lion's Lady, Saving Grace, Prince Charming, The Prize and The Gift! wheee~ i dun even mind 2nd hand books.

21. Camera.. but I very fussy when it comes to shopping for one.. i need to have the mood. and a very very convincing salesman.

22. Candy to make me a nice dress
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omg my list could go on forever..this warm up is GOOD!
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23. I want to have an eyelash perm
24. nail extensions
25. new laptop
26. sign up for habitude exercise classes in December at Bukit Timah Plaza.
27. TO feel victorious in the Standard Chartered RUn 2008
28. To obtain more love
29. To have peace around the world (yea rite.. if it was that easy..)
30. To travel, to live.

OH YA~ I want a high paying job too. most important.


Sigh. Everyone has insatiable desires. Unattainable ones, unrealistic ones.

I am one of those normal people.

Is this normal?

Self explanatory contradiction