i'm lost.

how cum a new yr turn out this way....last yr's new yr was bad too....sighx..i'm worried.

was softly playing with pootpoot along the corridor...then heard my mum crying bitterly in her room...i duno y...i wonder y...she came out saw me..immediately close the door...then went to the toilet...clean up.and came out again...she refuse to say anything...took a cup of whisky...and lock herself in the room.

helpless.

i wonder wat happened...wad kind of a daughter am i...i can't even comfort my mum...she dun even wanna let me in...

did my dad make her angry?

did my bro's comments hurt her now? when she is all alone and she starts thinking back?

is it me?

i feel so lost...gonna start crying soon. wads the use anyway...tears...uGH...