Death is indeed a scary thing.

Its elusive yet imminent.

Swift, sudden.

Loss, gain.

You can have everything today, lose it all tomorrow.


Today is a day mired with death.
My friend got into an accident. Thank goodness he was ok.
Another friend of mine has a sister who passed away. I couldn't go to the wake coz of my project meetings and my 'bloody' godmother is here.
And I almost got into an accident. Better not tell baby. ha. After he angry. Guess I just didn't see properly before I crossed the road, jaywalkingly. Not going to do that anytime soon...

Still, today was an eventful day. I kinda finished my part for NM3215. Whats left is NM3220 final report, NM2201 presentation rehearsal on Sunday night, NM3217 brochure and more NM3215 later on. Sigh. Why o why must we put ourselves through all these..

So much to ponder, so much to experience. After study= find work. After found= find friends and allies. Such a vicious world. Such an alienated one. SUch a waste of life? Such a waste of words.

If I die, will someone remember me?

I once told baby I wanna be burnt with fresh flowers and green leaves. I dun want no coffin. So expensive and what if some splinters get burnt into my skull. eww. But may be more Zen eh~ Nah.. i rather be at peace with nature, coming from it, returning to it. Let's all welcome the world of dust, within the time span of innumerable longing and waiting to return..Let's all fly.