Brother looking damn sad after fangfang left for homeward bound..

Hmm. I'm thinking of how to start the post. Ended on such a low note the other time, and am still feeling low. I didn't do well for the exams.. though I expected better for some. Expected B plus but got a minus. Some I already expected yet it freaking hurts and quite sad to reflect on how useless I am..

Ok self pity is not a worthy thing to do. I hve been struggling to get onto honours. I studied hard for this sem, yet it seems I did worse. Think of just doing bachelors, but if I did, you probably see my mum going into a frenzy. I remembered last time when I REALLY wanted to get into JJ because of my frens and being a strait-laced Singaporean like every parent is, my mum wanted me to go NJC. I cried n cried.. even during eating dim sum I was bawling away. Weak? dun stare in disgust at me. I was brought up in such an environment where everything is restricted. Sometimes I do start thinking that it was because when I say this, she shouts. when I ask something that u didn't know was 'wrong' in her standards, you're a fool and a lazy bum. Insist on some idea of yours, expect flare of anger. Diminished thoughts, mouthed words. Everything gets sucked back into myself. Silent. Unvoiced.

But of course, how can I give up half-way? I was aiming for Honours at first, I shld finish it. Sigh. But its just.. seems so impossible. like wth. to increase 0.1 next sem, I gotta get average of B plus. Lets say I have reached that goal and wanna increase another 0.1, the next time round needs an average of A-. LIKE WHAT the @&*^#&*@#! guess striving is too mild a word. I need to get desperate.

enough of studies talk. Getting me down. I wanna go running. I wanna go standard chartered 2008! heee told cherryn abt it le. i can't wait to sign up in JuLY!=) A test for me, a challenge~

The sun is rising.. but cannot see!!!

As for work: I'm now in charge of this project, an ENGINEERING txtbook by this Hong Kong author. wah lau. the English. aahahha. He was like saying in the preface: I would like to thank my clear-minded wife. 0_0 IS SHE ALWAYS DRUNK??!?! hahahah bleahx. i damn mean~ Lots of responsibility, but guess I have to match their pace, fight it out. Deadlines are there to be met, and I set them myself.WHeeeee cam whoring~

This is my workplace buddy, Edina! She's really quite nice=)

This was the highlight for me this week. Really beautiful~ sighhh...

Oh great. I can't upload photos suddenly. WAT IS WRONG! I shall try with another post..