sigh. soo bored.

aimless in life, just grasping at straws... living without reason...without meaning.

Who do i live for. myself? what for.

He asked me, what do i like. What would i like to do after i grad? i will start work soon..

so what, i said.

get good results.

so what, i asked.

i just said a matter of factly, get good results, so what. get good job, so what. in the end, we'll just become dust.

Indeed, What is the purpose. What is life? To help others and be helped? To make others happy so that we will be happY? So what. IS THAT THE ONLY FUCKING REASON i am surviving in this world? Are we just striving to be happy and be at peace? for what reason. To die peacefully and gain peace within oneself? FOR FUCKING WHAT?

the best way to live a lie is to lie to urself and believe it. This applies to everything, all religions, manipulation, governance.

i dun believe anything. i dun believe in myself. i dun believe.

what am i.