It is only when the sounds get muted out, the buzz sizzles out, the dim light from the night lamp standing rooted and the silence filling the air...

Only then will your mind starts whirling with thoughts..

I stare at my computer screen.. not knowing what to do. I don't even know what to surf, what to watch, what to read.

Somehow these days.. something seems very wrong with me.

Not sure why, perhaps hormonal effects, but yeah. I do feel it.

Is it changing? Is it mellowing? Am I changing?

Loneliness..

Aching..

I'm here...yet not there. Drifting yet shooting past. slinking away yet forced to appear. happy..yet am not. oxymoronic injunctions that makes sense yet eludes me.

Aching for everything and nothing too.