i dunno why.. i dun feel good these days.. especially when it comes to night time. When darkness sets in, the whole place is enshrouded with shadows.. guilt, thoughts, myriad of emotions just holding you under the surface, suffocating, drowning. Maybe I am just weak. A person who finds that playing the sorrowful victim is easier, whereas the one who stands strong and tall is the one that prevails.

Shucks no. 1: I freaking wasted one whole week of hols. How did it pass so fast? I dun even noe what I did for the whole 24hrsx 4days(so far)= 96 hrs. And I have mid term tests. Why can't I seem to have the motivation to strive on and just keep studying n studying.. argh.

Shucks no. 2: I just realise I can't apply for my SEP next sem. Coz if I get it, what happens to my tuition students? I can't just say oh byebye, I going sch overseas so u ownself good luck ahhh.. WHEEEE off i go. How irresponsible wld that make me. And adding on to that, I have a student that is p6 this yr. If she just does badly, I really guo yi bu qu. Guess I shall apply for the 3rd yr. Dragging my application YET again.

Shucks no. 3: its is really time to save.. u never know what will happen in the future, and I didn't know how much I had taken the good things I have for granted. I need to buck up.

Just really glad to have my good ole friends and my baby who is there for me. =)

We cooked dinner together last Saturday. Was really simple but nice and sweet. *muachx* love u baby~

jiayou elaine. Its time to stop being the victim and start acting as the baddie who strives for his own goals. Its a man eat man world, and worse, in a country where rats scurry around to make cheese and protect it. Hurray. I'm in it. Wake up.