Alls Going Well....i wonder

heh...nowadays doing moe stuff.though sumtimes i feel that in nus like v lonely coz there isn't always someone to share things with me and tok to...always a different person..so the friendships that u make in NUs becomes kind of shot n distant..not like what i had with cherryn back in jjc...sigh...making friends also becomes abit tiring..dun u all think..gotta expose urself again and haiyah..dunno lah=) just try to get by i guess...

wheee....the tuition girl i used to teach in bukit panjang...hehe..the mother wants me back! wheehee...i am so poPUlar wahahaha...bleahx..she is v dissatified with the tutor that she ask me to help her daughter...dunno how much i can help...coz i can't possibly cram her daugther be4 the exams rite...see how lah..MONEYMONEY ROLL IN! hehehe...=P

i joined the FASS club..quite exciting...i joined the sports cell...yea..i like sports..hope i wun cock it up though..for the Arts open..anyone wnna be a captain ball referee on the 28th OCT? HELP ME!!!ahhh..hahah

i miss my baby boy...*muachx..* sumtimes i do feel dejected...like things aren't like they were before...but i guess things change and things mature..its kind of scary...i hate myself..i can't adapt to changes.. like thinking of the future..where i should be heading towards...my dad n mum keep pressurising me to tke up some club thingy...like the toastmasters club those sort of thing to improve ur speech skills...i noe..my speech stuff is like shit...only know how to MM MM haix. then i got not enough of everything..sumtimes i just hate myself. i feel so useless like i can't accomplish much...i haven even accomplish much in life...i seem not to learn anything...i can't seem to see myself working in the future...i am quite useless and redundant actually..no one in the world probably needs me..life goes on even as the dust of ur remains swirl over the land..i wonder what are we all doing here. to learn? to experience? to do sumthing? my mum always ask me to let her go if anything happens to her...she always talk about dying..i hate that. my dad never seems to be there...even if so...for a while befoe he vanishes yet again. if i am my mum. i probably wouldn't want to live. no. i would probably leave and be alone. i dunno. tough choice. heck.

oo...jason's sister gonna get engaged...i need a diet! i can't seem to wake up n do so though...F man. if join some sports gotta make friends and kind of establish who u are and what u can do and ur position in the "tribe" kind of thing.,..its tiring yet again.

maybe i'm just lazy. i miss cherryn aida jaslin beechun shaowen candy denise joelyn xueyi and someone who dun seem to put me in her mind anylonger. to her i'm prob just some stuck up snob. all the promises are forgotten...something precious gone. sometimes i mourn the times and wonder what went wrong. mayb its just me. mayb its just me.oh fuck it. life is so despondant.