My Cousin's
here!

haha...she wanna go zoo..but heck! the rain has been pouring...that day my feet felt like they were swimming..the place waa flooded!

oh ya...sorry xingle!

hee...paiseh...i took leave tomorrow which is ur 1st day of work..hee u dun mind lah hoR:P dun worry i'll b back the moment u miss me...in ur heart=D

its really v difficult to lose sum weight...basically.,..no fried sweet food of coz...no processed food..no sweet fruits like orange n watermelon...no dairy products...tian ah...wads there left to eat? even casaer salad isw forbidden...coz their dressing is totally fattening...and no take out food...woohoo. i found this out in a book..."6 DAy body makeover" UGH 0_O so the recommended stuff are berries..grapefruit...different ways of cooking chicken breast n turkey breast. thats IT. i mean for my body type lah..haha..the book is quite good i tink..if only U have the time to cook...get all the herbs depicted in the book...and memorise the eating plan for days that they have planned out 4 u.

being fat sumtimes gets tiring...when u see those skinny eat air pple strutting their stuff in twn...fatigue sets in...at first u may think...oh..i can be fat n fabulous. lets face it...no fat pple can ever b fabulous...fat means fat. it takes a lot of effort to look good. it takes a lot of time to choose n shop for the right clothes that seem to hide all the fats..to make u SEEM slimmer and most choose black.Sumtimes when u seat in the bus...u are afraid ur bum just spills over the side..and no one dares to seat next to u.wad embarrasement....that day i saw this fat girl...she was wearing a DARN short skirt!! AHHHH a pullover as a top...but carrying a small hello kitty bag..tian ah,...wads more...she start to sing out japanese songs while listening to her mp3. help.

ps: the bus was v quiet...i bet all were laughing within.

that day i went to see my poor baby in the hospital...this is my 3rd time...but the 1st time looking for a ward on my own..hahaha..felt a sense of accomplishment. the 1st time i went was when i was v small...my mum fell of the bed n fractured her chin i think..hahha./dunno how she did that..that was gleneagles..2nd time was to alexandra hospital...HEY! still got another time is when verlin's finger got twisted...eww...tt was gross n scary...yah...okok so jason is the 4th time...at tan tock seng..

saw him surrounded by all the old pple...u really feel so helpless for them..they all have the same prob..they cldn't walk.some are so old that they slept with their mouths open..they are so thin n frail that they look like sumthing enshrouded by their blankets...it was sort of depressing..for it is obvious wad their future is..one day we will b like that...o what woe that wld be.

hmm...very long never go out with frens le...sigh..and dunno when my interview is gonna be...sumhow can't imagine myself as a journalist..sumhow i noe i'm not that sharp and able to assess pple...but i crave stressful jobs...sumthing to keep me on the move..sumthing to make me feel useful n impt.

debates are my worst fears. shucks. how am i going to make it.