yo.
ha...so deep in thought now..sighx..gotta read a lot of newspapers nowadats.. in order to get into what i want..i better strive for it this time..elaine jiayOU! yeah.
sometimes just wonder why do some pple just keep reading into things..actions...life is such a facade..a constant play...a constant judgement...so many things must be taken into consideration...religion..politics...geopolitics..ethics...blah blah and more blah. no one can ever satisfy anyone. aren't they tireD? but someone really gotta do these things i guess...what a kerfuffle from me.
anyway..yesterday was really a mood swing day...was damn pissed off by everything in the morning, then upon meeting my friends and jason..i became happy again...guess sumtimes it is really v stifling at home....AHHH..anyone can help me kill my dog..i c\have to keep cleaning up his urine after him...ALWAYS ON THE FLOORR..never the newspaper..but sigh...i love pootpoot...he's just so cute..whatever man..:(
hmm...feel that nowadays really love my baby more n more...not being able to see him and constanly thinking of him has really brought us closer no matter wat...=) last time i kept having doubts...but no more darling..i truly love u. u're always there for me...thank you...*hugx...
oh yah,,,my fren told me before that better not drink sugarcane frm dirty places...i mean like..even if the place loook clean..LOOK where they put the sugarcane..izzit in a buket or leaning against the wall? haha..BEWARE...leaning against the wall is a NONO. coz u noe.,..plants suck up stuff..so..HEHE.all the dirty water flushed onto the grnd and all the ickybitsyshitty stuff will get SUCKED up too!!! whee...then here comes the big hairy hand of the sugarcane seller...put it thru the whirring machine..*ZZZYYYYIIIIINNNGGG* *drip drip drip* alll the "juicy" sugarcane juice..*YUMS! hahaha then..gd luck to u babes.HEh
i'm so bored!!!!! the world sumtimes look so dreary...the world is shrinking...the water levels are rising...the earth is becoming hotter on one end while the other is getting colder...the air purity are getting worse..the rubbish are piling up..more pple dying..more new variety of diseases introducing themselves to start an epidemic..the disintegration of impt values..DIEDIEDIE! an increasing number of pple dying from ignorance disease and indulging themselves in high technology and dying every minute. DIE!!!!!! woohoo. every breath u take now is a breath nearer to death....lets all take in deep breathS***SNIFFFFFFF**** whee...die pple..oblivion is the best from all the rubbish that all of us are struggling through just to keep our mere existence alive and using our existence as an excuse to prolong the misery of many generations to come.

actually...sigh...wonder what our existence on earth is for...just satisfying those who live arnd us? there are so many different pple on earth..sumtimes when i sit in the car..i think...what wld i be worried abt and thinking abt and desire abt if i were that person sitting blankfaced looking at the busstop. when u sit in a plane...what wld i be doing..what wld i be seeing..what wld iu be facing in my dreary bleak future if i was sumone down there...the tiny meagre breath that the person take to try to reach greater heights called achievement in life.,.but so what...achieved..done that,been there. in the end? u're still gonna slowly break down into dust motesisn't whaty is depicted in movies...books...songs...tv programmes...all the high living discovery travel living programmes? all that is not what u are going to experience. continue dreaming. after u have experinced what u have alwasy wanted to experiuence sumtimes u will think...THATS IT? delusion is a great gift to oneself. b. haven u wished u want sumthing..like fall in love..or go for that holiday u always wanted. when u get it...it really ut dun do it for long. coz realism will hit u back ten folds of every one fold longer that u hide urself away.

Life sure is great.

hahaha..dun get depressed by my entry...i'm not worth it..actually..i am going to contradict myself.,HA, actually...life is truly simple. so what if u turn into dust motes. *kind of scary huh* but still u noe u've achieved whethever u cld before u disintegrate....u noe u've loved and being love in return before...even pootpoot doesn't really complain abt being bored...he just finds plaeasure in giving me a kick upon seeing his urine everywhere...and biting his tail...going round n round...well..silly but simple. thats life. its ok if u ain't rich. it's ok if it ain't exciting. it's ok if it sucks big time now. remember the many blessings u have. cry if u have to. punch if u have to. sumtimes life just gotta go on. no matter how meaningless it actually is, u gotta drag urself along. that the is the real challenge. URSELF.

yEAH..,.sleepy..but gotta plough through more newpapers...tata~ pictures another time.