i'm feeling sick!!!! so irritated...got a lot of hw to do...then this whole week so pacKed...not tuition..then ish sum community programme...everyday return late frm sch....haiz...dunno wats happening to my family...so silent..the house feel so empty...u noe..unless there ish sum go m'sia trip....the whole family is distant..i myself also dunno...now non of my parents ar in...onli me and my bro...and we are confined to our rooms...frm dinner till now...i haven see him...i will onli see him tomorrow in the evening...haiz...then my mum...she not watch tv...then i dunno compliaining abt wad..i feel so helpless...nothings going rite...haiz...then my common tests ..dun think i'm gonns score sum As or Bs.....wAtever....
u noe my father's bdae yesterday...it was TERRIBLE...i was the onli one singing the bdae song...while my mum and brother kept quiet...everyone was angry with each other 4 a reason....besides me....today i coOked..haha...the food was TERRIBLE....the soup NO taste...the egglyk uncooked....feel so down now...
today Mr M toked abt the future...i am scared....i've always wanted to work in the medical field....but the problem ish...AM I UP TO IT>..yeah...i now feel so lost...blahz....haiz...wonder wat to do on saturday....the part Bs the shooting...er...ok lah...actualli i see that they are putting in the effort...yup...i have confidence in them...if they put in their BEST in watever they do...and b consistant...i'm sure they can accomplish great things as a part...YUP...well....soon the master parade will cum....after tt...ROD...haiz....we've cum so far...and time is flying by so fast...wonder wad will happen on ROD>..anywae...be4 becoming an NCO....i wanted to be lyk kaiyan and juliana...they were ...i dunno how to describe loh....they were the BEST....the BEST BEST BEST.....yu;pz...wonder how they make such an impact in our lives....i hope i can do the same for the current part Bs.....but....=(....sum how sum way...i dun see any impact that me and aida have on them...sometimes i see them...i feel so...SI BAI....i really useless leh....i mean...as NCOS....shouldn;t we bear the full responsibility....i mean lyk...haiz...nothing.....
hmm...now doing D maths homework....then today the chem remedial...i feel SO stupid...i lyk dunno how to do loh...HU LOVE CHEMISTRY!!!!! if u LOVe it...DUN BREATHE...yupz...see...everyone hates it...haizzzzzzzzzzz....................................lost